I'm still alive!

Hi everyone!

So sorry I disappeared for almost a month. No one has been engaging with my posts, and coupled with my lack of motivation to do...basically anything, that made me not really feel like posting anymore. Now, though, I feel a little more motivated to write some stuff and hopefully resume whatever schedule ends up happening.

I'm surviving online classes the best I can, which is to say I am barely making it through. I'm doing the minimum I can to make sure I don't completely fail anything but I don't feel like going above and beyond. I'm trying though. I really am.

Animal Crossing is the best thing this quarantine honestly. It's so relaxing and calming, and delightful to talk to my villagers every day since the only humans I speak to in person on a regular basis are my parents. And an added bonus is that there are no pandemics on the island of Avona!

Anyway, I'm still here and healthy. I promise I'll try to post more frequently. If you're still reading, please let me know what kind of stuff you'd like me to post!

Of course I hurt myself

Sorry for no post yesterday, y'all. I would have posted, but I ended up injuring myself. Because of course I fucking did.

I was trying to pull up the bottom of my shirt to sneeze into (I didn't have kleenex and didn't want to just sneeze into the air) and the combination of that and turning my head apparently required a muscle in my shoulder to go 'lol nope' and I pulled it. It was awesome.

I'm fine, it just hurt a LOT to type last night. It seems fine to type today so here we are. I wanted to make sure y'all know I'm alive and okay. I also feel like this is a semi-productive use of my time; chronicling one of the strangest goddamn times of my whole life.

In more exciting news, my brother promised me back in December that he'd buy me a Nintendo Switch. It's coming this weekend, Animal Crossing: New Horizons comes out tomorrow...turns out there are still a few good things in this world, even if they're small.

I don't know how to do this

So my school cancelled commencement today.

Something important to note: I almost died my freshman year. I got a horrible respiratory infection that required me to be intubated twice and in the hospital for around two months. I lost all that time with my friends and that whole experience.

Another note: I had to apply three times to get into this school, and I wanted to go there from the age of 11 or 12 on. I REALLY wanted to get into this school. The day I found out I got accepted was one of, if not the, best days of my life.

I'm having all kind of feelings about this decision. On the one hand, I'm angry and sad that such a big day and such an important time of my life has been taken away, like a rug being pulled out from under me. On the other hand (and this is honestly the one that pisses me off more), I completely understand why it's being done. I understand the decision, and I honestly am glad that it was made. I'm high-risk for this particular virus, so being around a huge amount of people for hours would be more dangerous than it was worth.

Doesn't mean I'm not pissed. I almost wish I could not understand why the decision was made. I feel like that would make my anger somehow more justified. I don't know. It sucks, it all sucks, and I'm so sad that I'm numb meaning I can't even cry.

Sorry for such a downer of a post. This was not a good day.

Welcome to whatever this is

If no one understands my blog title I'm going to be sad, but also my sense of humor is fucking bizarre, so I wouldn't be shocked.

Hey hi hello everyone. My name's Lauren, and I'm a 24 year old college senior "graduating" (that's in quotes because these are Strange Times Indeed and I don't even know what the hell commencement will look like).

I'm one of those fun high-risk groups for the coronavirus, so my dad and I are currently hunkered down for some...undetermined amount of time. Maybe weeks, maybe months, who knows! We love uncertainty (she said, sarcastically).

I'm suffering in extrovert hell and am desperate for any kind of social interaction or outlet to get my opinion and words out there and in theory have people comment on them so I can respond. Basically I am incredibly desperate for human interaction, and I need something to do so I can feel productive while I wait for online instruction to start.

Short post to start but hopefully more excitement will come. Probably not, but regardless, stay tuned!